Nearly...

Next week's my 2nd year induction, so this long (not hot) summer is finally over. I need to buy a coat, I can feel the chill in the air and am having to scrunch down in my bed so that there is no draught.
I finally got (most of) my books. A big box arrived yesterday and my friend thought some sort of optical illusion was going on. The books kept on coming and coming. As I explained to my bro', that isn't even all of them. Student loan really doesn't come at the right time for the buying of books, does it? My maths GCSE book came and I don't think I understand it. Most of the time I thought 'oh yeah, ok I get it' but then every task now and then I look and feel my brain cells dying.
ugh
Anyway, 2nd maths lesson tomorrow and then Tuesday is induction! Woohoo or no, sorry gotta be down with the kids, so w00t. Right?

Maths

Today I learned just how bad I am at maths. This is such a shame as I would like to think I have more than an ounce of intelligence. No matter though, onwards and upwards and all that jazz eh? Hey, I can only get better!
It was all decimals today and I made the major mistake of thinking that .o3 was the same as .3 when in fact it is the same as .30, great huh? At least I have a good understanding of negative numbers and the 'number line' and I know how to write numbers as words and know how to write numbers in figures. I know that you're probably thinking everyone can do that you dick. You'd be wrong.

Listening to 90's tunes

So I awoke at 8am and was a little late to the TV studio, but I'm not the star so nothing was held up. The bus was on diversion and no one thought to tell the passengers. The swines! Ah well, the walk does us all good I suppose! Last day of carnival and it can't come quick enough. Mostly because I need to have my mistake rectified and the money owed to my friend's parents repaid. Not that they know yet what has happened but needless to say: a mistake was made (mine) and recompense shall be paid (by me).
DAMN!
This STILL affects your credit rating... Can't wait for my student loan to be paid. 23 days and counting. All will be on an even-keel then. Equilibrium shall be restored.
Tia (my dog) is still a little ill but seems to be much better today so that stress is leaving too. I hate feeling the way I have been lately. Too many things on my mind, and therefore mistakes are made and tempers are frayed. College starting soon, then uni', then I will immerse myself into the world of knowledge and not check so much on the internet, wasting hours clicking from one Wiki' entry to another. Why is it that you can go from looking up 'what that bloke has been in' to Mescaline in perhaps only 5 easy steps? Meanwhile looking up about a trillion other things in the meantime? The internet was surely not created to waste time?

Surely?

I have very recently discovered the joys of Spotify. I know, I'm a little bit slow on the uptake sometimes. It's easier to use than LastFM which I have tried (and tried) to get to grips with, but Spotify has allowed me to more easily find songs that I have completely forgotten about. It's amazing and I am feeling much younger too as I have rediscovered music from the 90s that was ACTUALLY good.
Amazing!!

So my choices:-

Counting Crows: Mr. Jones
Lisa Loeb: Stay
Tracy Bonham: Mother Mother
Arrested Development: Mr. Wendal

Bloody good!

I hate the Notting Hill Carnival

Sorry, but I do. It's too big and too loud to be confined in a residential area and I don't care what others think. From my window I can hear the muffled noise and mayhem of what is apparently the 'Childrens' Carnival. Them children must consume a LOT of alcohol, that's all that seems to be being sold! As long as it keeps them quiet, I suppose.
Tia (my dog) is NOT liking it either, especially not the strange dog that is hanging around. So on top of the muffled speaking from a PA system and the bass and beat and what sounds like 'huh huh huh huh' there is now the added barking sound. Fantastico.


NOW there's someone with one of them air horn things.

I hate to sound like a grumpy old woman but I am so that's how I appear. No, really, I do hate to soud like a moaner but I just am not in the mood for this. They *should* move it to Hyde Park. What's the problem?

Anyway.

I may go and purchase some stationery from Staples. But then again, I may not! No, I need some graph paper and highly exciting things such as that. College starts soon and I might go out of my head if I don't leave the house. Tomorrow I am going to watch 'The Wright Stuff' (again. I should get paid) so at least *that* will get me out. But not for long as the carnival is on. <>

I need a life! :)

Money makes the world go 'round...

it's just such a shame I don't have any.
After numerous phonecalls and 2 unpaid Direct Debits I have decided 'to hell with it! I'm paying everything with my student loan and so will get into more and more debt until I get my money'.
This means, you see, that nothing will get paid for until the 23rd September. But, fuck it. You can't spend money you don't have.

You do realise this affects your credit rating?
I don't care.

Put THAT in your pipe and smoke it!

I can't wait to go back to uni'. I am being driven insane and I just don't like that feeling.

This summer I have successfully:
Painted my backdoor x2
Painted the step x2
Read 'If on a Winter's Night a Traveler'
Got into the red
Learned to dislike Vera Brittain
Ditto Aphra Behn
Visited the Imperial War Museum
Ate 3 Big Macs
Appeared on national television saying 'shocking' too many times in a normal sentence
Re-enrolled for uni'
Enrolled for Maths GCSE at college
Quit my job
Read some WW1 poetry
Had a delightful conversation with my crush
Had a delightful conversation with an 81-year-old woman I met in a pub
Got so drunk I vomited
Went to a wedding
Sang karaoke

One day all this (and hopefully THIS debt) will be a memory. Comforting. I mean it. Really. It comforts me. I am NOT being sarcastic. I'm NOT!!

I regret

I checked on the 'Secret Regrets' website (http://www.secondchanceonline.blogspot.com/) and, after remembering that I had posted one, checked to see if mine was there. It wasn't. But then I thought, I have a blog... I can post whatever I wish to post...

But what do I regret?

I regret the mistakes that I've made in my life, but I have learned from them and so they have been invaluable lessons.
I regret not telling particular guys that I like them, but then I don't see that they were the 'loves' that I was looking for. I have faith (and blind hope) that Mr Right (enough) is out there somewhere. Someone who doesn't think I am a bookworm, and who is only nominally more intelligent than I am, I can't take the competition otherwise! Hahaha ;)
I regret that I spent all of my student loan as quickly as I did. I had a good time though!!

Basically I guess what I am saying is that of course I have regrets, we all do, but what of it? Don't dwell on the past, on things you cannot change. They are past, in that foreign country that you cannot even visit. Cher may have wanted to turn back time, but I have accepted that I can't. So, march on inexorably towards some future point where things are 'A'ight!'

Hahahahaha

I have work now. THAT'S a depressing and sobering thought, innit?

I am sad

Yesterday we had to put our beloved dog Wedge to sleep. Although I know that she is in a better place, that she had no quality of life and that she was in pain, it was still an awful decision to make and I spent most of yesterday crying. She will be missed.